Wacky phone

Monday, May 25, 2009
The good news is my phone had survived a drowning episode in the washing machine. The bad news is it is still suffering from a post traumatic injury and sometimes it can be a bit 'wacko'. It is as if my phone has been possessed, it will activate itself and started typing txt messages on its own accord. Sorry guys if I am a bit laggy in my txt reply. That's becaue my phone has a mind of its own and started deleting the words that I have typed in.

A wee update on how things are at the moment --- phew, life is a lot more bearable now. I am still being ignored 90% of the time, BUT, at least I don't give a shit take it too seriously. Oh well, life is not always smooth sailing. Thanks Chyi, you cheer me up. Pastor Henry Seeley from Planetshakers came to Arise last Sunday. Such an amazing speaker/worship leader he is! It is true how we often seek validation from man and forget what truly matters at the end of the day. I might be calling them 'bosses' one day, but I know The Man that I am truly serving for. Met up with the Canais in the afternoon and had Nandoos. It is just a short 2 hours but it is amazing how friends can bring a smile in the midst of hostility.

Surgeon=atomic bomb

Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Sux when nobody believes you. "Maybe you didn't try hard enough. Maybe you are being too passive." I'm starting to have three out of the nine DSM IV criteria for clinical depression. Five is all it takes to reach the diagnosis, oh yea, two more criteria to go. All because of this stupid surgical run. ARGGG! I will never want be a surgeon. S.N.O.B! I bet surgeons have the shortest life span among all medical professionals due to all those poisonous stress they swallowed. Scrubs and Grey's Anatomy are delusional. Wonder how they have the time to sleep around and create lots of never ending drama. Yeah right.

Never gave up

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Bottom of the food chain

Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Hospital is so different than general practice. If GPs are angel, then surgeons are knife slashing butchers in blue scrubs. They don't talk to you unless it is absolutely life and death necessary, OR if they want you to pick up the pen from the floor OR if they need another walking shelves to carry their files. Lots of people asked me how it is like to be in a team doing ward rounds. Well, it depends on your team really, especially the first two 'heads', i.e. consultant and the senior registrar. My friend had a one on one session with her registrar and she had learned heaps. My registrar didn't even look at me when I greeted her! What a S.N.O.B! Meh! I don't expect much from consultant anyway since they are the VIP and time worth more than a million bucks to them but at least he asked me if I want anything to drink.

It is easy to spot hierarchy in the hospital during ward round. Consultant and registrar will always be at the front of the line, EMPTY HANDED and talking among themselves, occasionally they will include the house officer in their discussion. The house officer will be tailing behind them, frantically scribbling down the notes and orders. TI will be the house officer's best mate, helping him to answer the pager, occasionally helping up with the notes. Last and the least would be the fourth year student. Pretty much being ignored most of the time unless they need a hand for the files. Usually I will tag along with TI or house officer IF house officer happens to be free from paper work.

My house officer is cool in a sense that he gave me the permission to do hands on stuff if opportunity arises. BUT he never supervise me. My reg is hopeless! She regarded me as invisible even though I said hi to her. Is it really that difficult to share 5% of your knowledge to somebody who is keen to learn? Even consultants were students once before. Does it lower any of your status to talk to student? Well, it will be too late in the future to worry about the competency of your juniors when you were lying on the operating table, just because you decided not to teach your student back then how to hold a scalpel properly. ><