no life?

I really need to stop boring you guys with stories about my school but I really can't think of anything that I have done outside school. Ok. The bottom line is I have no life. How sad is that.

Anyway, back to my boring life and boring story, I was in ED this week. Has been quite fulfilling so far. Had two major duh events while i was in ED. On Tuesday afternoon, I had 450ml of blood being drained out of me (blood donation, not bleeding!). I was oncall that night, and it was madness. Lots of MVA casualties, beds were literally stacking out the corridor. Last thing I wanted was to join the casualties at the corridor. I almost did. I fainted. But luckily only for a few nano seconds. That was when I found out I was anaemic.

Tonight in ED, just as I thought I had enough sugar to keep myself from fainting, I accidentally banged my head against the back of the chair. Great. I can't afford to have more of my precious neurons died. Besides the two hapless events, I pretty much enjoyed the learning in ED, thanks to the advice from previous students. 1) Avoid Dr. I-own-the-world like a plague. 2) Hang out with young male doctors. Now don't get me wrong. It has nothing to do with WHAT'S going through your head now. It just happen that young male doctors are more keen on teaching students. Most old mature male doctors are going through mid life crisis and female doctors generally have higher stress level.

Apart from the mandatory skills we need to pick up, i.e. ABC, history taking, communication, clinical examination, d dx, treatment, bla bla, I've seen the reality of some harsh decision we have to make in life. For example, should I buy this really expensive jacket and live on bread for the next few weeks? Nah. Nothing like that. It is like giving a CT contrast to a renal impaired patient who had a suspected leak from the AAA stent and risk having dialysis for life or save the kidney by not having the contrast and running the risk of bleeding to death from the leakage. The hardest decision is sometimes the unknown. Like going through a surgery that has a minute chance of success which might end up in ICU wired up to a dozen machine, not a dignified way of dying. Or not having the surgery and the end result is death.